Suivez-moi.

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Yep. My journal is Friends Only, which, I know, kind of defeats the purpose of an on line journal. But hey, look what a pretty banner I've got. And did you notice they've switched their shorts? I wonder how that happened... what do you think?

Okay, not Friends Only. ^^ All fandom content is pretty much unlocked, general whining and personal stuff that is locked. But if you want to be added, just leave a comment. :)

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[blueeyedpanther.livejournal.com]

I know..trust me...I lost four people in my life last year...this year its work and home and fandom life...I love a man I can never have, whom I believe loves me too..its The Little Mermaid/Beauty and the Beast/forbidden lovers bourne in the wrong time... :(

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Oh no. Who did you lost, babe? :(( that's terrible.
As it is being in love with a man you can never have. *hugs* why can't you have him?

I hate that. I hate it. I wish to give life the finger and scream SPARE ME THE FUCKING ANGST AND GIVE ME SOME BORING HAPPINESS FOR A CHANGE!


But who would listen?

[blueeyedpanther.livejournal.com]

my great uncle, my stepmom, my pap and my first boyfriend from when I was 12...

And as for unrequited love? Its just the wrong time and the wrong place..and 3,000 miles that separates us.

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What do you do in that situation? Do you somehow stay and try to look for a way to make it work or just throw the towel and accept it's impossible and move on?

what is the brave thing to do?

If you leave, do you go the rest of your life wondering about the "what if", or you move and accept it wasn't meant to be?


What's the way to go for you to be happy?


I hate that situation. *hugs*

Let's get drunk, better. IF only it wasn't 8am. But I leave work early and I am going to do something to forget about everything that hurts. I swear I will. ^^

[blueeyedpanther.livejournal.com]

I left work early because Im sick :( Throwing up sick..double :( Its time for some Buffy the Vampire Slayer and some toast and gingerale.

I dont know WHAT to do...its been 18 months..and I think Im in love with him. I haven't felt this way since Taylor. He's worth the streets of Heaven, the oceans of Earth and fires of Hell...

Doesn't this LOOK worth it?

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It certainly looks like it's all worth it. But ask yourself, Kat, is it really worth it, aren't you putting your time, yourself, your precious heart on a relationship that has no future, that could never happen?

I'm not the one to talk though.

I just want you to be happy. You so deserve to have everything.

How old is he??

[blueeyedpanther.livejournal.com]

31 in December...self-made millionaire...Im not really putting much of anything in to it right now. Its not that I KNOW it cant work, Im just ASSUMING it cant. Everyone around me tells me he likes me, Im just too afraid to ask.

"Say there is no future for us as a pair? That's ok, I may know but I don't care..As long as you're mine"

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yeah well , that wouldn't go so well. ^^

but does he live near you? and if your friends told you that then there is something. why would they lie?

You have to take a chance. isn't it worse not knowing?

well, I guess in some cases, but really, you should find out...

[blueeyedpanther.livejournal.com]

He doesnt live near me..but nothing is holding me back and except for a brother..he could move his work here..they ARE his companies...but Im willing to give a new life a try. I went to Los Angeles and fell in love with the city. If he wanted me to go out there? I would.

I guess after all of the rejection and heartbreak and pain in my life, I'm AFRAID of knowing what he feels. It hurts enough as it is TO love him, but it's not like I can switch it off. I just need to get a REAL hit instead of a small fix.

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I know all you've gone through, Kat, and now I understand better.

This stuff, starting over, a new life, a different place is always scary. And it might seem you're doing it only for a person, but maybe you need the change as well. A change could be a good thing, but I do know it'd be better if you knew how it'd turn.

Do you keep in touch with him? talk often?

[blueeyedpanther.livejournal.com]

Hes so busy..we TRY to keep in touch. Im in the process of getting his email, but the two people I know who have it wont give it to me :(

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why on earth wouldn't they give it to you?!
What's wrong with them, damnit!